In my early age my family knew that I was gay but they did not want to talk about with me. The only way they could talk about, or to have a conversation about it, was to say how evil and demonic it is. Through their conversations I could tell that they were indirectly sending me a message to change. As I was in a conservative church and I was so committed to church, I would pray and ask God to deliver me from being gay. I did pray and fast, but nothing changed. I didn’t accept that I am gay and in doing so I caused harm to my fellow LGBTQI folks and myself. I attempted suicide three times. After the last time in 2019, I felt that enough is enough and I took a decision to spend time with God. <br /><br />When I spent time with God, asking Him to deliver me, He still did not. I said, “God fix me or kill me. I am tired.” He never responded to my request, but He showed me the ministry that He expected me to do here on earth. That made me angry with God because I had an issue that needed to be dealt with before I could go do what he wanted me to do. One day, while I was praying, I saw myself preaching in an auditorium with rainbow flags. God had never said anything about LGBTQI folks before. With that vision I made up my mind to be an activist that would advocate for the LGBTQI folks in the church and promote inclusion. <br /><br />When I started having conversations about LGBTQI folks, I was named all sorts of names that are demonic and satanic. I felt like I was doing something wrong at times, but I never stopped because I felt that this was my calling. <br /><br />My family was ok with me not talking about it, but when I brought it up for the first time, I was told that am not part of the family anymore. I was kind of bothered, but not too much because God had dealt with my heart, and I continued constantly loving them. As much as they hated me, I loved them back even more, which ultimately was the greatest testimony advocating in my favour. After about a year and half we were reconciled as a family. Now I am mostly on good terms with them, because there are many who will pretend to love you, but still make funny comments and remarks. <br /><br />Today I stand as a proudly gay minister and will continue spreading the Word.
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